You want her to pull the trigger and say that it's over, but you're also hoping to reconnect. You're all over the place and that's understandable.
You need to get a life (GAL). What do you really enjoy doing that takes your mind off of everything else? What brings you joy and makes you focus and forget about your worries? (And it shouldn't include things like Strawberry Cough or Pineapple Express.)
