I'm not going to file anytime darknes, I have a long way to go. I just am releasing my thoughts. I need to write them down or I will lose my sanity. It's going to be difficult enough splitting our budgets over the next few months. It will take a few more months to get the house in my name.
I need to not be a doormat so I think with her out of the MBR, and looking after herself, she'll see what life will be like.
The problem is that as long as she finds OM's I could DB till i'm blue in the face. Am definitely going to continue to detach, cos ultimately that is the aim. I am getting there. i am getting stronger. I'll continue to re-evaluate things but I must be prepared for the worst.
How do i deal with knowing that she's screwing other men - is that trauma really worth waiting for the day to reconcile, if that ever comes? I guess i'll have to wait until my feelings change then...
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
