That I would want to control and track her, forever. Doesn't sound like a nice way to live, for either of us. Hearing you say that reinforces my feelings of not wanting her back... Maybe that's just me.
OFP, i'm with you. I ask myself why would I want such a broken person back. Am I not just continuing the fix-it mentality and trying to make them better. Ideally, they need to make themselves better don't they? It's like being in rehab with your addictive partner, can't be much fun and life is short already.
I believe that if you're always looking behind you, then you're never going to look forward. I think they're stuck in the past and we LBSs need to look to the future.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.