5 weeks in since she said she doesnt love me.(2)

[Natus]

W went for her interview this afternoon. She was nervous and excited. Gave me a peck on the cheek before she left. With luck this will mean she gets a new job soon and no longer sees OM on a daily basis.

Meanwhile im planning my DBing, going over where i went wrong and which parts i think im doing right.

Since the whole other OM business i have came down very strong. Im in danger of being ultra controlling. I need to pull back and detach.

I dont know why but past few days i have been snooping crazy. Need to stop it. Its just feeding into the dark feelings, turning me into a jealous monster rather than a lighthouse.

I have been pursuing. Definately need to stop this.

So keeping my goals light this next week.
- Stop snooping
- Stop pursuing
- Stop controlling
- Go out adult fun atleast once.