I have been feeling numb the past couple of days. It's an odd feeling as moments of sadness start to come up,but disappear before taking shape. Then anger, but same thing. Then desperation. Same thing. I am feeling numb, stuck and just going through motions the past couple of days.
I am sleeping better. Well I am sleeping through the night with just a couple of wake ups but then promptly fall back asleep. Although I am waking up and not feeling refreshed. In fact I wake up sore like I went through a 12 round boxing match. Stiff and sore muscles. Not sure what this is either.
And she still has not signed the paperwork in spite of the text she sent Sunday morning. I sent a text asking last night for the time frame and next step and still no response. She is also making it a habit not to answer my calls to speak with d5 when she has her.
So not sure what stage this numbness is, but I don't really like it.
I am hoping to find some energy and motivation and see some things moving forward. Awaiting a D, yet stuck in a weird kind of limbo here. Ugh. Not cool. Not cool at all.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
