A cousin called me. She talked to one of W's friends about being friends on FB. This friend tells my cousin no, because W told her not to, because somehow info keeps getting back to me. Um, if you don't want people to know something, why would you post it on FB in the first place? W and her friends aren't too bright!
I pick up the kids, first thing they tell me is about their mom's trip out of state.... They listed the "friends" that were there, but the kids specifically say the name of POM (potential OM), and say he wasn't there. I told them someone called me, said they didn't know I had the kids this weekend, I told them I didn't, they told me about seeing the pic of W on FB. So, I show them a pic from FB, POM is there. Why would she lie to the kids when her friends are posting pics of it on FB?
I told the kids I had no interest in knowing what she is doing, but if she's not going to be with them I would love more time with them.... Then I realize a few minutes later, maybe she's testing what I am watching on FB? But I wasn't even watching! Oh great! Then again, I don't know that she is smart enough set a trap like that.
I explained to the kids that people are telling me stuff, and I actually ask them to stop telling me, and that what she is doing doesn't matter to me.
But wow is this just gut wrenching. Yeah, I get it, we're not together anymore, she can do what she wants. Yep, supposed to be detaching. Yep, she may not come back. The OFP I think I could forgive, though it's going to need some explaining. But if there is OM, I won't forgive that, ever. Why do I have to keep hearing this stuff from my kids?
It still doesn't feel right being with the kids, every time I see them reminds me of what used to be. To hear the hurtful things she says and does. Her trying to limit my time with them and for what? Because part of her screwed up mentality thinks I am a monster to them? She knows and has said I am a good father, I just don't get it.
I love them, I would do anything for them. I miss my family!!!! I miss being able to pair up, to do things the 4 of us. And now I cry again, dang it!
