Thank you Zephyr - well, you are not very wrong either. I just mention I am an average person meaning the pain one feels once living a divorce story.
I do believe that I am (not all the time) very amazing, dedicated, wonderful, caring, happy and a lot more and it is all very positive. But you know that a person can be cruel and mean to the ones very close to us. And that is something that happen to me and my XH, we were nice to everybody else and we forgot to nurture our love and R, we became worse then strangers.
I am learning...
Thanks RD - As usual you have faith in me and cheer me up all the time. You are an amazing guy RD and I am happy to get to know you.
My XH is far in body, mind and heart. If he is lost or not, I do not know. It looks like he is destroyed. I sense he is still depressed and is not looking for any help. But this is all the consequences of my actions, his actions and then our actions.
We have a very awkward situation were we are divorced but still married, we are cold and far and yet we sit together and share a bible. As usual in my life, nothing is just straight forward, it is complicated to say the least.
Thanks Sotto - so, so sorry you got the decree. I see you are doing good and will thrive even further, but I am still sorry that another R end up in D because one person is not willing to fight for it.
I agree with you about XH, better let it be. My hopes are fading, becoming ashes and one of these days the wind will blow it away. I still have some love left in my heart so I will stick to it until the last breath.
I do not get his attitude tough. Sometimes I have a hard time understanding exactly what he means about things. V said he wrote what I want to hear, but sometimes I am not sure it is just that. But, we will see.
*** By the way, if anyone sees Job around, ask her to stop by my thread please!!! I can't find Never Give Up thread and I would like to read it since Job said it may help me in some ways.
And if anyone knows about anybody that actually got back together after divorce, please let me know. It may be nice to read about it.
