What really [censored] is that I believe she IS broken up about it, and has no idea how to express it. Like I said before, she's an emotional brick wall. Not without cracks though, that let me get a glimpse of whats really going on. I know she is not happy, I don't know why, and its not up to me to figure out, I'm just a casualty. Its all just a sad situation. But I can't help her right now, only myself.
Digit, that is exactly right. Focusing on helping yourself is the key here. You can only control yourself,heal yourself, and make yourself the person only a fool would leave. She will have to decide what she will do. This is the core concept to Dbing as it relates to GAL, 180, and LRT. Remember this and you will be better no matter what the future holds for you.
Thanks. That's absolutely the course I'm on. It feels good too to know I'm doing it for the benefit of myself and no one else.
Funny side story, W asked if I wanted share a cigarette yesterday. (She just occasionally drags off of mine). She looked quite baffled when I told her I haven't had one in a week! One of the things I've been trying to kick that I'm now determined to succeed at, for no one else but myself and my own health.
