14 days of sheer hell, part 6

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So my former WW friend says that things may have gotten physical, but maybe she didn't enjoy it. My heart skips a beat.

I do want my financial independence and her to enjoy hers, but don't want to push her away

I'm worried about what she will think and she will do, that's why i'm feeling unsure as to whether i should split the budget.

I am better without her.

cos apparently she cannot drink around me... she's getting the drift i guess.

She's in her new room now, on the phone as always.

You still are doing all of this around you. You seem to know the things to say in that "Im protecting myself" and "Im letting go", but it's still really all about her. Where are you talking about your goals, your 180s, your GAL. Where are you out meeting new people, doing new things, being a new you.

You are expecting HER to change, but thats not right. YOU need to be the first to change, and so far, I havent really seen much. Theres been fits and starts, but overall, you still seem like the same DDJ as when you got here.

As for this:

I probably should not have sent the first email to all, but F it. That's just how i felt.

This is what I mean. You still seem to me to be emotional, impatient, and controlling. This isnt just "not covering up", this is exposing and embarrassing her to her friends. Why do you think that will build attraction in her towards you?