returning Newbie????

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emotional day! can't figure out how to keep a PMA going. i have been sitting here freaking out over joint counselling tomorrow.

i am crying sitting at my desk at work. I am sure I look like a fool.

i know in my mind that I need to detach, be strong, GAL, etc. in my heart, its screaming at me and it hurts when it beats. sitting here i feel like its not be able to beat again.

i do have a meeting with my coach in an hour and 1/2 and struggling to make it thru