So, We had the talk. I actually texting him backing out of the talk. We both admitted we wanted to talk but were nervous.
Our first half hour were like we never ended. We caught up about our kids and lives and work, and politics, lol.
Then he brought up what was going to be my icebreaker, the defriending on FB. I explained why and I told him I as holding on to it and I told him it hurt. He remembers the timeline otherwise, but whatever.
Much to be said. But yes, we got into talks of us. I don't want to detailed on here, but it was eye opening. We admitted to still missing eachother. He asks about me all the time to mutual friend. He talks about me all the time to his secretary, and just the other day. We never met, but she is a fan of mine, lol. he indicated him and gf don't have what we had. Not much was said about them, but I can see it is a Band-Aid. His daughter can't stop talking about me, he said her mom is probably sick of hearing my name. Everyone misses me including him. he aid multiple times "I just keep walking away from the ones I love". We discussed that a little.
But..... still the same issues. he couldn't handle the distance and the commitment to the effort it takes to make the distance work.
Of course, there was so much more. It still come back to the same issues I can't resolve. It's not for me to resolve. And I know this.
There is peace and comfort knowing he just didn't toss me aside and forget me. Then there is that pain of loving someone you just can't be with. I do not regret speaking with him at all. It was actually nice. If it's ever meant to be, it will be, under the right circumstances. But I won't wait for it.
Jks,
I have quite soft spot for you because I can completely empathize with everything. I know how you are feeling now, and I know what good is to come for you, and you will embrace it when you experience it, I am quite sure. You have not used up your quota of love for a lifetime, I can assure you of that. And letting someone new is isn't as painful as I make it look. It was such a wonderful experience. As I get older, I realize people do come into our lives for a reason, and we can love multiple people, all of which teach us something different.
