Out of In house S- Start of two homes (10)

[vise82]

Hey,

Had to sign all the paper work for the sale of the MR home.

Picked up kids, had to let the daycare know that I will be bringing the kids to before school care for my days I have the kids.

Going to have to change my work schedule so that I can drop kids off at school in the morning.

W was at home at kids were at a neighbors hose. She asked about the trailer. I said that she could just make a pile in her driveway and when I am done with the trailer she can use it.

She didn't like that said she couldn't do that stuff would blow all over. I said to pile it in the back yard. she said she couldn't do that. Then I just said I will empty the trailer, then you can use it. She asks why I am being all weird about it. I didn't say anything. Not sure if a truth dart was needed. Like you want this separation but you want this help from me, I just don't want to be taken advantage of. Didn't say that but thought it.

We worked out some other logistics, now its a struggle because she wants time to work on her place and I also want time to work on my place and the kids need to be looked after at the same time.

W dad is doing everything for her, painting, putting up window coverings, putting furniture together. So no need for me. She invited me to see her place tomorrow as she is dropping off stuff and will have the kids with her. She said I can go if I want or don't if I don't want to.

I just said ok I will think about it.

I think before on here, I said I would go as it would be good to just show that I can be there and be ok with it.

This morning, W offers to help me at my place to put furniture together or anything that may need two people. I was in shock a little and just said well I will see how it goes.

Temp checking? Keeping just enough connection to me so that I am still attached? I don't know but its exhausting. This is why I keep looking to an all or nothing type of solution. Just to be free of the DB roller coaster.

I am tempted to have a R talk, Like where do you see us going now that we are in separate houses? What do you expect from me? What do you want out of this?

I am not the one to initiate this type of talk and I know that. But my patience is running thin on this. At some point enough is enough.