Ginger, your posts really resonate with me. We have a young D and our xhs left us for OW.
And like you, xh was the only guy I had ever fallen in love with and I had ever loved. In the months leading up to the D, I refused to even mention 'love' and 'xh' in the same sentence to my C. It was too painful for me to say it out.
Like you, I only pour out my innermost thoughts here on the board.
I think you are very brave to allow xNG into your heart again. I know how much it takes. Some times I feel like I am a 1 man woman and I have used up my quota of love for this life time.
If xNG doesn't get you, I am sure someone else will.
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.
