Oh, one thing i forgot to add, apparently i'm getting boring...
It has become very clear to me that this is definitely OM2, the BFFs bro. I do think its only an EA, as she'd probably not have stayed home last night if it had gotten physical this wknd. But that's just a guess, based on addiction traits.
As for me, well, I had a great sleep, a full 8.5 hours. I feel refreshed and ready to take on the world by myself, with myself. Now for a full 8 hours of doing nothing and letting my mind run away from me - yay - NOT.
I'm starting to understand the physiological effects of NO AFFECTION, NO INTIMACY, NO FIRST CONTACT, NO TIME TOGETHER. If you change your actions, your feelings will change. Doing all of these things just keeps you hooked, it's enough that she's throwing her own out there, so there's no point in you doing it as well.
I had another dream, about a girl, so sweet, so innocent. My mind is telling me that those feelings are still there, but it's not going to be for my WW anymore. I must look forward, I cannot look back. I also think that all relationships (except for family) have an expiry date, you could recycle it and start fresh but that depends if there is still any value left, from the LBSs POV.
So i'll keep enjoying the anxiety of it all at work, and show who i really am when i get home. This will pass, everything does. Amen.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
