More detachment, less anxiety and the continued joy of limbo

[Phoebe]

Thanks for checking in on me, SadHub, Sotto, ggrass, and Painter.

Painter, I hope that a high pressure system is coming your way. Rating to push some blue skies and fluffy clouds your way.


Today was... kind of weird.

It's so late that I'll have to write about it tomorrow, but that MeetUp was not at all what I expected. The people were unusual, and with the exception of one woman, were not people I can really relate to.

So... What was weird? I got hit on for the first time in about 25 years, and it was by that same woman! I have no problem with the gender aspect, but I really have been out of the game a long time that I didn't see it coming. She invited me out for tea after the meeting (well, a drink, but tea is more my thing), and so, why not, right? She was interesting. If it was a man I would have declined, but I am looking for friends now, yes? i have no problem being friends with her still, but I was just caught off-guard.

Am I sending out vibes that I am available? I hadn't intended to.

I'd like to think that the reason I haven't been hit on in all these years was because I wasn't available and that showed, as opposed to not being desirable, but either way, it was a surprise.

Anyway, more tomorrow.

SadHub - I am so off track on my meditation. HELP!!! I did go for a short hike today. Does that count at all?!?!