"Looking back, he's right. I didn't want to be intimate with him because he wasn't that nice to me. Never physically abusive, but angry. "

Have you ever told him this? To be honest, your situation seems to be easy to fix.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER