Digit, Last night there was a bat in my house. It flew around for a little while trying to find a way out then it just gave up and went and hung out on the curtain. I captured it and put it outside.
That's how I feel.
I don't have an answer to your question. Just wanted to tell you that you're not alone in not knowing what you're doing. I'm just blindly flying around like you hoping to find my way out of this mess waiting on the good people on this forum to help us out.
And it sounds like, by your analogy, all the crazy, flying around every which direction, bouncing off one thing and bouncing off another trying to find the right path, is really just unnecessary. Because once you stop all the zigzag, i don't know what I'm doing, flying around nonsense, and finally decide that the 'curtain' looks like a nice place to calm down and rest and gather my thoughts for a while. You will be carried away by someone/something that already knows the path...
Now, who knows if that someone/something has the intention of taking you to the door and letting you fly away, or putting you on the kitchen counter and pounding you with a 5-lb frying pan over any over until you're a bloody mess... but umm, I'm getting distracted...and disturbed. be back later! GL!
