Wife files D after I confronted her 2nd EA-5

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Rich4j,
Yes, being "fixers," we hate the inability to control the direction of the D. The anger and resent is a constant, ever present any time there's reminder of our family being broken up. I want to cry but I find no tears coming out.
Yes, I have tried meditation but I am not good at it at all. Even in better days I find my mind wandering and racing frequently, it was very hard to sit down and meditate. I tried doing it in yoga classes and usually I just get drowsy. I've tried the mobile apps recommended on this board and the music did make me drowsy but didn't bring clarity to my mind or anything like that. I'll look up Headspace and maybe find a true meditation class around here. I definitely need peace and serenity in my mind!