Out of In house S- Start of two homes (10)

[vise82]

Hey OTW,

Thank for getting back to me in your thread.

Yes I do think kike you are saying that we are still married but separated. I feel like I am stuck. I still feel the commitment and until the D happens I am still committed.

I don't know if this is holding me back.

It sure is not holding back W.

I need a plan. With out a plan I have been doing thing based on emotion. With the move the plan was to step back. Do my own thing. have as little contact with W as I can. To let her go live with out me.

I cant be friends with her right now, I have to many feeling for her. If that makes sense.

Easier said then done as she will try to pull me back in to some degree. for example the trailer and dump run for her.

While doing my own thing I am thinking of contacting my brother. I think its time. I have tried to connect with other people and have not done a good job. I have soccer starting up and will try to do better socially there. Also professionally I am planning on upgrading my skills.

I think that is enough for now.