New here need support

[Phoebe]

Poschan, early waking can be a sign of depression, specifically serotonin depletion. I had the same thing and am finally getting a bit better on that front. (maybe the SSRIs, maybe just the healing process?) Anyway, it was months of waking at daybreak and being unable to get back to sleep. It's no fun.

My doc initially gave me trazadone,which helped a LOT with getting to sleep, though it didn't do much for the early bird syndrome. I found that I had to just go to bed earlier to get some extra sleep. I developed a reaction to the trazadone, unfortunately, so now I'm taking antihistamines which aren't nearly as effective. I refuse to try anything like Ambien due to the sleep-walking, sleep-driving, etc. risk.

Be sure you mention your early wakening to your MD when you go for your appointment. Talk about all of your symptoms, even if they seems trivial. Your doc need to see the whole picture.

[poschan]

Thanks SadHub. Everything seems so overwhelming at times, especially when I start to think about the future and being alone here. I need to somehow acknowledge the fear accept it and know that this feeling is temporary and will go away with time. How does one go about finding a good IC?

[poschan]

Thanks Phoebe I will mention both to MD. I really appreciate everyone's support here. I am having somatic symptoms too tightness in stomach mostly.why can't I just be like was who seems to be getting along just fine. Although she has been on anxiety meds lorezepram for some time so maybe that is the difference with her.

[poschan]

I'm having a hard time keeping it together. d7 just said "goodbye dad" when WAW was taking to a dr appointment. I just started bawling and can't get a grip. that little girl is so precious to me and it's killing me to see what is happening to our family ( and she doesn't even know yet). absolutely the worst pain I've ever had. God please give me the strength to get through this, my daughter needs me to be strong and right now I am weak and broken. God please

[SH_]

Poschan,

I wish I could tell you something that would ease the pain in the moment. I know first hand the hurt you are experiencing.
Let it through. A wise woman on these boards told me once that it is not a sign of weakness and your d7 will not see it as such. We have been conditioned to think that way, but trust me it is not.
Now the pain does cloud our judgments, but that is why I encourage you to let it pass through you, and after it does then focus on making decisions.
You need to start the healing process. Get to the MD, get an IC, find a divorce care group in your area. These are all safe places and will get you on the path to healing.
And my most important price of advice.
Stay in the moment.
Looking back will bring on depression. It does not good as you can not change the past
Looking forward will bring on anxiety. We tend to envision a future that is created from our past. We come up with scary scenarios that most likely will never happen. You can not predict the future, whether bad or good.
Stay in the moment. Pain becomes temporary if left in the moment. Joy can be heightened when we focus and experience it in the moment.

Be kind to yourself. Take care of yourself.
You can get through this.
My prayers are with you my friend.

[poschan]

thanks SadHub - it is so easy to drift into the future. you are right though, no crystal ball and it just adds to my distress. Have to remind myself to stay in the moment. That little girl's voice just tears at my heartstrings. Prayers for anyone who reads this. I will get over this and thrive

[poschan]

MD has recommended Zoloft. I wanted to check here to see if anyone has had experience with this med and its affects?

[collin]

MD has recommended Zoloft.

what mg?

[CWOL]

thanks SadHub - it is so easy to drift into the future. you are right though, no crystal ball and it just adds to my distress. Have to remind myself to stay in the moment. That little girl's voice just tears at my heartstrings. Prayers for anyone who reads this. I will get over this and thrive

Yes, it is very difficult to see through the future. I have the same feelings of distress constantly. Sometimes I feel like I want to run away from it all and live on a deserted island! But then I remember my S11's happy face as well, especially when I see pictures of him when he was 5-7...

[sandi2]

Anti-depressants do not affects everyone the same way. If they do not help, tell your doctor, and he/she will try another type.