New here need support

[poschan]

I'm having a hard time keeping it together. d7 just said "goodbye dad" when WAW was taking to a dr appointment. I just started bawling and can't get a grip. that little girl is so precious to me and it's killing me to see what is happening to our family ( and she doesn't even know yet). absolutely the worst pain I've ever had. God please give me the strength to get through this, my daughter needs me to be strong and right now I am weak and broken. God please