OFP, I actually was not angry when I wrote that post. Not at all. In less then a month it will be a year post BD. And soon after that he physically left. The year prior he withdrew himself to the basement. I am just kind of settling in on my own feelings of not caring anymore. ITs nice.
Painter, I don't know if the issue is us being a good match or not. i don't know if life's stresses were just too overwhelming. Maybe people are just constantly changing. I go back and forth too. The only thing is I don't care if my husband sees the light because it's really not on anymore. I looked past a lot of things in our relationship but I can't look past the way he left. It's not really an option for me anyway, i was just thinking about it.
JKSD I am ready to start moving on and healing. I feel I have accepted this loss and my lack of control regarding it.
