I've not written or sent it yet. Am very happy to take anyone's advice.
A strange thing happened, looking back. The day before my H travelled back to our country (from the other side of the world) I got the most awful feeling.
I've felt stuff from him before, from the other side of the world. I think I know the moment when something happened between him and OW2. They were both working in Australia at the time, and I had a horrible, horrible feeling of dread and panic.
I couldn't have told you what it meant at the time. But looking back, now, I can see where it fitted in with what was unfolding.
Anyway, this time I felt this awful feeling of upheaval and confusion. Then a couple of days later it was totally gone.
I'm pretty sure that he travelled back, spent a day or two in our home town (asked his mum to sort out this stuff for him) and then went to stay with OW. I think he's been with her ever since.
It's so hard to describe. It's like when he's with her I don't feel anything at all from him. His attention is totally elsewhere and I can just feel the peace and calm and quiet around me. But if he's not with her and having to deal with life stuff (meaning, the consequences of what he's done) it's almost like I can feel the negativity and confusion from him, and it's really bad because it's really strong.
