I know the world is spinning for you. I know you may even start to be feeling like you are crazy. Let me tell you my friend. You are going through the exact same cycle as so many on this board. The severity and the longevity may vary, but you are not crazy I promise you. Check threads for help, ask specifics and ideas will be offered.
For your state of mind look for counseling whether it be an IC, a grief counselor, a divorce care group, religious leader of any other type of counseling that you can think of. You will need to find what works for you and you will need to commit to it as it may not feel like it is doing much if you do not commit. On that note, be selective as well. Counseling that is not in line with your core beliefs will not help you. See MWD suggestions for selecting a MC. Same principles apply to other types of counseling. I believe we have discussed the MD for assistance as well. I suggest the same approach as the counseling. Make sure the doc has your beliefs. Example, I do not like the idea of taking meds for long periods of time. My MD helped me review short term options to get balance when I was spinning most, but is following up with me so that I can come off when appropriate.
Sleep is a huge challenge. MD may be able to help. There are many sleep aids out there you can try. I have tried many and found some success, and many sleepless nights. Diet and exercise are helpful as is meditation. Meditation can help grab control of your mind, which ultimately is what keeps you sleepless.
Look at your actions of pursuit today with WAW as a moment of weakness and a mistake. Learn from it and move forward. You will slip up , but if you learn from it you will grow and progress.
Hang in there, one step at a time.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
