WAW moved out, spewing anger, trying to detach

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Good morning.

I slept soundly this past night, although I awoke early. But I feel well.
The last 2 days have been an absolute joy. I had some moments of....not sure what you would call it, but they were sad, mad, funny, doubt, and just shake your head and wonder what the he//?!?

So as I have been real busy, a lot has happened and I will journal/recap as best as I can recall.

First I am happy as my mothers surgery for breast cancer was such a success she went home the same day. I spoke with her and she is in great spirits and feeling well all things considered. We wait now for the tests of the tissue at which point the treatment options will be presented. The doctor was optimistic and hopeful. This was needed news for me.

My brother has finished his first full week of his new job and speaking with him is a joy and great distraction for me. This gives me strength.

My d17 has just spent 2 days at a conference for women entrepreneurs. Women looking to start a business, women with a small business and women that have grown small businesses to success. It was an absolute dream for her and the happy glow coming from her the past 2 days is indescribable. She is so excited that she is trying to talk me into helping her get to Nashville in November so she can attend again. I wish I could share all that she shared with me, but I will just say, the energy and happiness she has just sends chills down my spine and the grin of a proud father is so etched in my face it almost hurts.
The best part is d17 is very shy and introverted, so this conference is very outside her comfort zone. And did I mention, this was a women's conference. Not a teenager girls conference. Needless to say, she was the only teenager in attendance. So I challenged her to make 5 contacts. I wanted her to step out and mingle. She did and to make a long story short, she made contacts with women from many other states, and the best part, was that these women were fascinated by d17 and her story so they were drawn to her. Talk about a confidence booster for my baby girl.

Yesterday I enjoyed one of the best GAL activities that I have done since the BD. A good friend and a friend of his took me out shooting yesterday. I grew up with an outdoor father with hunting and shooting for recreation. Being raised in the military and having done a short stint myself, guns are just a thing I have always been around. But I have not done it much in my time married. Anyway we set up this weekend to go, we went, I had a blast, and the kindness of these gentlemen was just overwhelming. I have just 2 small handguns, but they had many different ones. Now ammo is not cheap, but they made sure I used every one of the guns they brought, and did not stop encouraging me to shoot until I had more than my fill of fun shooting at the targets. It was a morning that I just lived in the moment and will remember for a long time. And the whole time I know the d17 was having as much if not more fun.

I miss d5 but today she will join us and I look forward to it.

I was going to share the other events in this post, but I need to get going for church and to pick up d5, so I will share some of the craziness that also took place, but for now I am going to revel in the joy of the good moments of the past 2 days.