Hi Blu, you are a lovely presence on this forum and I look out for your posts. I'm sorry things are still up and down. The triggers and PTSD symptoms are tough and will take some time to pass. People say they do reach a point where these settle down and they also say that piecing should be tough.

Regarding the MC - how did you feel about the counsellor? Would it help to move to a different MC, or perhaps even consider an event like Retrouvaille together? People on the forum seem to really rate it.

A big positive in your sitch is how committed your H is from what you post and that's a huge factor. I've read many sitches in piecing where the spouse seems a bit flaky - but I don't get that impression from you.

I hope you're having a better weekend and remember to relax and enjoy some fun times too. I read an affirmation on Reality Trip's old thread about breathing and being okay through feelings....I wonder if it might help with the FIGHT response perhaps?

I'll look it out and post it for you xx

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus