14 days of sheer hell, part 6

[DDJ]

(I'm writing this so that I can look back on it as the day that my new life began)

I had a goodish sleep, and awoke a few times, anxious but more tired, so went back to sleep each time. Eventually the sun came in at 7:17 and awoke me.

My WW has not returned home yet. She was never going to. If she really drinks, then she passes out. No way she would drive like that, nor would anyone let her.

So i ask myself, what do i believe is the right thing to do (thx sadhub)? What is the boundary that i stated if she did not want to share the MB with me (thx Cadet)? What could I do that made her see that I am serious about how I feel about the inappropriateness of her actions, that would be a stand that i've never ever made, that would help increase the size of these tiny new balls that i'm growing (thx sandi)?

So i've cleared out the cupboards of all of her stuff in the main bedroom, moved them to the second room. I found the key that locks the door too so when she eventually gets home, she needs to find a new place to sleep. Only problem is that the shower en-suite is attached to the main bedroom, but i'll let her in to shower each evening.
Our S has his own bedroom, so we're putting him to sleep in there from now on wards.

Just had a small cry about the marriage that i've lost. Not the W. This is an opportunity for me and I have to take it.

Between my previous and last wake-up, I had a dream. In this dream there was a cute girl I was interacting with, I felt attraction for her and she was everything that I could see my life with. We spent a day together travelling somewhere with other people too. I then awoke with a smile on my face. Again, I believe that dreams help tell us what our minds are actually thinking. Your heart can blind her head, but your head must always be followed.

Also, i've not gone to church as I need to perform this renovation. But i'm not going to come back once I leave here at bout 10am. If my WW wants to spend time with 'her' son on her bday, then she will need to come to my mothers place to see him. The saddest part is that I doubt that she has the balls to do that.