I get the spinning and uncertainty about which course of action is correct. I really do.

But the speed with which you are spinning is unreal. You went from not responding to responding in 19 minutes.

Slow down! You can't possibly be making good choices at this speed.

Me: 44
H: 44
Kids: 20, 16, 16, and 10
Together/Married: 22 years
H announced he was emotionally detached and considering D: 4/4/16
H announced he is going to try to stay and reconnect: 5/1/16