Hi Rose888, Well it sounds like you are at least busy and planning family vacation sounds fun. I don't allow myself to think about that right now as if I think about summer/camping I will totally lose it! Well, I emailed H and invited him over to discuss the living situation tomorrow afternoon. He emailed back and suggested meeting at a coffee shop instead. This sent me into a bit of a depressive funk for a couple hours, realizing he doesn't want to be out here at our house with only me. And I HATE the coffee shop he suggested, even on a good day meeting a friend - very noisy near road etc. So I took a walk and calmed down and realized perhaps he isn't ready to be at our house together since last time we were was the night of our fight, and since one of the things I know he needs is a feeling of safety right now, I thought about it from his point of view and thank god for email, as if it had been on the phone I most likely would have been reactive! So I suggested another place that has a calmer outdoor area and ice cream and hopefully he'll be ok with that. It's hard not to read too much into everything. What's on your summer bucket list? Today I was fantasizing about running off to work at a campground in France where I lived for a summer in 1992 w ex-French husband, his grandparents owned it at the time. ah. it was fun when we weren't having drunken fights! Good luck with your business trip!
