Mowgli I'm doing the same. Sounds exactly like my life right now. Can't stand being here. I go to the gym, or anywhere that I can for the day. When its my day with the kids my WW is a nurse, she tends to pick up a lot of overtime so she is not home when I am. So far it is a exercise is living with high stress.
Sandi, the WW doesn't really watch me. If i'm around its when the kids are and I try to play with them. I do my laundry, make my bed, get ready for the day, looking good and smelling good. Then I head out. She is definately in her fantasy with OM. The other morning I heard her on the phone downstairs talking to OM and all I really caught was the tail end of the conversation. She said she had to go at the end cause I might come downstairs. I mean really, how dumb does she think I am. it's so frustrating to pretend to be dumb and collect all the evidence I have. Not that it helps me, no fault province, just for my own justification that she is crazy.
Today i felt punchy, I started a fight with her. I haven't said barely anything in days and I needed to get it out. Probably healthier ways, but I did. I saw her leaving OM house which is around the corner from ours, she didn't know I knew where he lived. She had said she was going to toy store for present for kids party tomorrow. Lies, lies, lies. Anyways She is going on monday to get seperation agreement drafted, that may be why I'm punchy too?
I basically told her that she was abondoning the family and her kids. That made her rage and I said well your giving the kids away 50% of the time and you don't even want to go to MC. She just said I wasn't helping my cause, I told her she doesn't even know what my cause is. I feel like I'm giving up a bit and just saying let it go and move on, or I just need to send some truth her way. I told her my concerns with OM moving in to our nice house from his crap place concerns me after I'm gone etc. Just alot that was on my chest, and put her in a rage today. I know it was all conter productive to what is taught her, but I feel I've been stuffing down everything I need to say and she walks around in a dreamworld not paying attention to anything in this house and not saying 2 words to me ever. It was time to unload a bit. oh well, back to being quiet now, just had to air out some of my anger. bad idea I know, couple steps back. I feel a bit better though, and knowing I'm leaving anyways, does it really matter at this point. She doesn't seem to notice or care that I'm here. I have lost a huge amount of weight, i go to the gym, I'm GALing as much as I can and I feel good. I just needed to let her know that I don't need her, I wanted to be a family but I don't need her and its too bad she's abondoning this family. I feel good though. sorry for the verbal diareaha.
Me 40 W 35 Kids 2 S6 D3 T 10 yrs M 8yrs BD 11Mar16
