I am sorry to say that I know that feeling only too well. I was absolutely devastated when my H disappeared. Now I see a psychologist, a grief counselor, am on SSRIs, and various other things, but the single greatest thing I have had is the passage of some time.
No, I'm sorry to say that time does not heal all wounds, but we do need time to heal. Healing doesn't just happen, so we have to work on it. A little bit every day.
Reach out in any way that you can right now - friends, family, Meetup groups, doctors, therapists, whomever. Do any and everything that you can to help yourself.
One of the better things I think I did was to acknowledge how much I was grieving and then to find myself a grief counselor. I also decided to stop fighting the sadness, or whatever emotion, when it came, and just let myself feel it and then let it pass on by. It helped me.
Poschan, remember your heart has been broken, but YOU are not.
H: 44, Me: 45 Married: 20 y Together: 25 y no kids Walk away: 12/15 Asked for temp separation 12/25/15 PA confirmed 3/16 (apparently neither the first, nor the last PA he has had) H filed for D 5/16
