My first post - please be nice.

[collin]

11 more days. Tomorrow she has an adoption event with the dog rescue group she volunteers with. She asked me if wanted to go. Typically I would go. But this time, I told her I had stuff to do around the house. I need to clean the gutters and mow the yard anyways. I think this will be the first time I haven't been with her.

We used to email each other back and forth at work. We hadn't done that for a couple weeks now. I have outlook set so when she emails it flashes. Occasionally I catch myself looking at the icon expecting, wanting, hoping it to flash. I had all of our emails saved in folder, I went through and deleted them yesterday.