Need some help from the DB community! Crunch Time!

[cbtdad]

Thanks Acc!
You are so correct. My insecurities have been a turn off for a long time for her. I can see that now. The thing is I am so confident in so many other areas of my life. It's why I have been doing so many other things lately. Getting away from the house, etc
Last night we were at an event on our hometown. We were having some drinks and it came up about where things were with us. She said shes been telling me to get out and do more things for a long time now. And that I need to be making the changes for myself not her. I told her the changes are for me, but that she was the reason for the awakening. She also said that she feels like she would be good telling our S that we are friends. Like that mommy and daddy and tried, but we are better as friends.
Of course right before that she said she wouldn't be there if she didn't think there was a chance.
One minute she says things that would involve the future, the next moment she will say things that make me think whats the point and why are we even acting like there is a chance.
Those are the times that its hard for me not to react obviously and I have to get better at it
Thank for the input