So kid called from xh's flat. I have blocked xh's mobile but not the flat number. Smart of him to have figured that out.

Kid wished me good night and chatted with me for a while. She sounded kind of down. And I miss kid so much I started tearing.

Then kid told me xh wanted to talk to me. I was kinda of in a ball-ripping mood over kid's hair-pulling incident. Xh sounded friendly. I was starting to warm up too until he started asking if kid's hair loss was due to the lice preparations and asked me to stop using it on kid.

Kid has been lice free for months. And I thought I told him in 3 simple sentences that kid admitted to pulling her own hair. I suppose I might have reacted to his implied trivialising of the hair loss. He sounded like he wanted to talk more but I was so annoyed and frosty that I started giving 1 word answers. To give him credit, he didn't get annoyed with me.

I felt bad. So I texted him, thanking him for letting kid call.

In another world, in another place, in another time, I would have been thrilled to have him call. And hear his voice.

You can call me Dory/ Grl.

As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"

It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.