I know the pain that the emotions can cause and there are difficult. But it is important that you seek out the means to heal and grow from it. Study DR, seek out an IC, therapist, see an MD, if needed, and any other means that can aid you.
Focusing on him and blaming will not help. It is natural to have those feelings but over time it will simply keep the wounds fresh and in pain.
It is time to focus on you.
Keep posting, there is support here, but look to take the needed steps to move yourself in a positive direction.
I have you in my prayers, and hope you can find some peace this day.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
