Working on detachment, my anxiety, and the joys of limbo

[Painter]

You really sound very good about your day (last few days)! The grief counselor obviously knows how to keep this at a manageable emotional level. It's an interesting process.

I was reading about a trauma release therapy method (unrelated to this) called Somatic Experience, and the theory is based on how a traumatic experience for prey animals is released by shaking and deep breathing, which resets the nervous system, but that in our human society, we suppress these reactions (based on shame, perceptions of how we should be and behave, feeling out of control, etc.) and that this is why we develop PTSD - we don't allow the body to go through the necessary healing process.

From that perspective, it is interesting to see how you and your providers all think your shakiness should be suppressed by medications or other interventions - it fits right into the theory of how we respond to it. Maybe we need to embrace our physical reactions to trauma more and not try to control them or suppress them!

Congrats on the thrift store finds! I love them, too - have several outfits that look like they cost 20 times more than what I gave for them. And it's such a boost to put on something nice.

I hate to bring this up, but have you considered if the birds that stay close, are nesting in those shrubs...? I know birds will fly very near to try to protect their nests.