H had a year long affair with a family friend- her husband found out Aug. '15 and she immediately went back with her H. He has not contact with OW since Oct. '15 when he had to see her again to "just talk for closure" and her husband caught them again in a Walmart parking lot. H says he is ambivalent about staying married or getting a divorce. We are both in IC. He says he needs to work on himself before he can work on a marriage. I got angry in April and contacted a lawyer but could not go through with paying the retainer. When I don't see him. I don't miss him, but we talk about the kids a lot, and my feelings come back. I've GOL, have lots of friends, an active social life and I sometimes feel indecisive too. He still hugs me when leaving and people say they can't believe we are on the verge on divorce because we get along so well. Son graduates from HS next week and part of me thinks he could ask for a D after that. I don't get the feeling that's where he's headed but I obviously can't read the guy- we still had sex while he was having the affair- then tells me later he hasn't been attracted to me for a while. Now he keeps me at a distance- except for the hugs. Is he playing me?
M 25 T 29 D 22 S 18 BD 9-11-15 H says he's ambivalent about staying in the marriage
