14 days of sheer hell, still in fog 5

[DDJ]

I love you two! OK, it's 2am. I did a great job of sleeping till now. Tummy hungry so going to fill it then back to sleep.

Just got unsolicited TM to state that she's still gonna be partying.

Guess that I can't even give her "cake" for her bday. Lol

As for feelings controlling actions, I get that too. I feel upset, I feel used, I feel like crap, I feel like crying, I am crying. I am going to eat, and then sleep.

I was thinking bout the snooping thing too, let me ride it out. There will be a time for snooping.