I hear you on the anger. Vanilla has shared some good things with me as it relates to anger and the different shades. It is helpful to understand for channeling appropriately and for out benefit.
5 days is a long time not to be with your child. Fortunately my L shared a co plate ting plan to ensure I never go more than 3 days without having my d. But those 3 days are tough for me. I do have the fortunate situation that d17 has chosen to stay with me, but I know in a year or so she will be off to start her own life. I try not to think of that now though as I want to cherish each moment I have now.
It's good that you get to see him daily with his sports but I know that is not the same as taking him home each day. My heart goes out to you as I know your pain.
Why is sleep so elusive? I have never experienced that in my life until the BD. And the sweating thing may be due to your AD, or not because I have had the same issue. I have had to change my t shirt several times in the night as I wake up so drenched. Not sure if it is meds or just my body and the stress the emotional pain is causing. I wish you success in working through this challenge and will share any successes I find in my own battle with this.
Keep doing the things that will help you heal and know I send you my support as I feel your pain and know what you are going through.
Have a good day my friend and even though s11 may think he is to old for hugs now, be sure and give them. You will both benefit.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
