You are not alone in your line of thinking. I have said many times through my M that I would do it only one time, and in my heart I know I meant it. Your view on the family values in our society has merit based on statistics and many folks that I know. It is sad. One thing that digs at me the most in my sitch is recalling my WAW's father telling me to not bring her back when I asked him for permission to marry his daughter. And then he is one of the bigger influences to her in leaving me and filing for the D. This is a man that claims family is the most important thing to him. But I try to forgive as I have no idea what stories she has shared with him or claimed that I have done.
Anyway thank you for the message today. It is one that many of us feel at this time. I do deserve the right to let time shape me and if there is " the one" out there, then I will pray for divine guidance to know they will be as committed as I am. But for now the fresh wounds remind me that trusting that fully may be more difficult than I would be willing to do.
Have a good day my friend and may you find joy in something around you.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
