WAW moved out, spewing anger, trying to detach

[SH_]

Thank you Phoebe for that perspective. It is always good to step back and see things in that manner.

I slept well considering the challenging day yesterday. I am up and functioning now and will enjoy the few minutes I have with my d's this morning.

I am focusing on having a PMA today as I feel a hint of anxiety under the surface, but am focusing to identify it and let it fade.

I do have a feeling of loss in this moment. It is painful. I miss the person that was my W for so many years. I miss the family unit that I had that I believed would be there for my life. I miss the thoughts of having a friend that I could confide and trust in.

I will have a good day. I will believe that I am strong enough to love her, detach and fight for my MR, even if it is only in my heart. Will she really ever come out of the fog. Is she even in a fog, or does she simply just know that she is done with the MR. I know the answers to this can not really matter as I must focus on me.

I will look to God for peace and comfort this day as I try to stay focused on what I can control. Me and only me, do I have control of.