Seeing as how I am moving in a week, the title change.
I can see I still have a strong connection to my W and finding it hard to not act on those feelings. The air in the house right now as we get ready to move is lighter. I am not spinning about it too much. The moves are happening. The kids have seen both houses. W wants to exchange keys for our houses for emergencies and for kids and dog.
I am too attached right now and want my W back. But I don't like how she has gotten so close to other people (gay neighbor for one) and treats them and talks to them more or better then me. It just that I feel like she shares stuff with them that should only be kept between her and I. Its like everything we do is getting told to these people. I feel like I have no privacy. Then when I see her friend i just think well you know everything that's going on. It just feels like a violation of my right to keep stuff that happens in the house in the house. But with the new place It will help me detach.
But I can see some issues already starting, she is being very loose with the parenting schedule. She is going to be going out on a Sat night which will be her night to look after the kids. She is assuming I will just take them. I have a feeling she is going to do what ever she wants regardless of following the times we have with the kids. I will have to see how that plays out.
I just have this pit in my stomach where I think she is going to try to push me and walk all over me with this. A boundary issue for sure. time will tell.
She wanted S lives and that what it said in the S agreement, but she is going ahead and changing utilities over for me, the mail thing and now the key thing.
Its a she's out but she is in thing. I am trying to pull out and she is putting her self more in. I am just confused right now as I try to move forward one way and W throws something in the way that changes how I was seeing things go. Then I don't know if the change is bad or good.
I will just leave my post there for now.
Me late 30's W mid 30's T 15, M 10 S4, S7 ILYBNILWY June 2015 In house S July 2015 W rings off Oct 2015 My ring off Feb 2015 Separate houses June 2016