14 days of sheer hell, still in fog 5

[DDJ]

Thx Natus, I can only be myself. I am fully comprehending the DB rules. It's not really to save your M, it's to save yourself.

I went to an interview today, second one set for Monday so i know that God has great plans for me, whether my WW is around or not. I never told her about the interview. She calls me as i'm leaving and I tell her I just went for an interview. She is a bit taken aback.

I send her this TM.
I have to live my life as though you are no longer in it. Only you can decide if you want to stay, or leave. But i will not wait around for you to make that decision.

She replies - I am trying , but you cannot see past my new friendships that i've created, sometimes its good to do things apart, regardless if its male or female friends. Thats where trust comes in.

I reply - New friendships are good. Bad friends are not. You have not shown me that I can trust you. Do you think that going out until 3am with strange men is building trust? If you do then you will never build trust with me. Show me action, show me trust.

She replies - You want us to go back to where we were? I sit at home and be the good wife and do everything you say? I thought we gonna leave that people in the past but clearly not gonna and it takes two people to make it work...

I reply - No i don't want to go back to us before. I want us to make things work. But we cannot work if we are not together, if the one is out and the other is at home. So let's stay together at home and try to make things work. We stick together. After we can actually be together, then we can start going out again. Right now, its getting us nowhere.
If you are willing to make us work then you will remove all distraction. You will leave your phone by the door when you get home, no chatting to anyone. I will do the same. We can check the phones before we go sleep. If your M is important to you, then you can easily do this. I can.

I still await her reply.