Time to Love and discover myself

[Vanilla]

This OW will keep the ball in play. Of course, I suspect she has several balls in play in different parts of the world.

French fancy, it's easy for some women to be cordial in that way.

As soon as the ball pulls away she drags it back to kick it again, and many men want what they can't have. So they get dragged back in.

That's WH enthralled to a tart.

It's running its course and your xH is travelling the Kubler Ross curve, there are moments when you could R. In those moments you will have to be ready.

So it is in life.

I have no desire for R, I doubt if I am R material and I am aging and so the risks get greater. I am too damaged although there is some repair. Here I am two years down the line and the wound is still being dressed. It takes time.

I like the thought of R, and not with STBXW, in fact I am still grey rock. I am still afraid.

That is what I see Pink fear, what ifs, not act as if. Not grey rock although something similiar. You know how and are resistant.

If I was to tell you that grey rock doesn't suit me although I need it, that I do not want to be Vanilla, that it is easier to be Plain Vanilla instead. I think this is so for Pink, instead of vibrant Crimson Pink, you want to be dusty dull pink. I think you may be afraid to be that Pink that is attractive to your xH. I ask is that because of what ifs?

If I were Pink I would be truth darting xH on the picture, it can be very straight up when the opportunity arises. Do so with humour than anger.

V