WAW moved out, spewing anger, trying to detach

[Phoebe]

I'm sorry to hear about the difficulties you've been having being able to talk to your D5. How do your local courts regard obstruction of communication? Is there anything in your patenting agreement that you can use to help you maintain closer ties? Obviously occasional interruption can happen, but what you describe seems very calculated. Morally, it's miserable of your WAW to block you that way.

As for those markers of success that you mentioned, I think you probably ought to look at the last few months in a more objective way. You want it to all be better, but you really need to take a much closer look at how far you've already come.

I can't think of a single better way to truly appreciate where you are than to take stock of where you've been. I think you should go back and read your own posts over the last few months, starting early on. Heck, just pick a few random days if it's too hard to read all of it. Glance back, and I think that it won't take you long to see that you have passed some incredibly huge markers of success just in the last couple weeks alone. Go further and you will see more.

I read your posts and the amount of progress I can hear in them is amazing. You have shown such resiliency over a remarkably short period of time. My 3-hour cruise started in December, whereas your trip through he11 began in February! I'm not comparing our journeys, and never would presume to do so, as each one is unique, but I really just want to stress how much more concentrated your experience has been, time-wise. You've had so much to deal with in such a short period of time.

I've said it before and I suspect I'll say it again, SadHub, but you you need to be kind to yourself right now. Put your own oxygen mask on first. You are doing so much more than simply surviving. Every day you heal just a little bit more, you do something a bit different, your outlook changes just a smidge. All of those little things add up.

Think of watching a child grow. If you're with them every day, you can't appreciate how much taller they get each day, whereas if you didn't see that child for two months, the change would be huge! You are too close to yourself to truly appreciate how far you've come. Go back and read the notes left by your earlier self; he'll tell you all about the milestones that you've passed, my friend.

You are doing so well, SadHub. No, you're not healed, but you ARE healing. A little bit every day.

Pencil smiles and wishes for another healing day tomorrow. Breathe in that oxygen.