Jjb, I hear you on the loneliness part. Throughout the M, I was always quite lonely. So I am looking at 10 years of loneliness plus possibly the rest of my life as well.
But jjb, for the time being, you need to put on your big girl panties. You have to get ready what you need for the mediation process. Make a to-do list.
I was there before. The idea of the D pained me so much that it fell to the last of my priorities when it should have been the first. My L had to chase after me for things and I didnt use my usual analytical skills to examine the info. I am now paying for that.
Take a deep breath, give yourself some time to mourn your R, and then you must get on with your prep.
(((Jjb))) This is not easy but this has to be done.
Thank you GRL! You are absolutely right. How are you paying for it? Did you give in to something you feel like you should not have? is it to late now?
