That is a mixed up set of different ideas and conversations. From my dumb guy perspective you sound sexually and intimately starved. How would you relieve these if you were single and didn't have another person to satisfy? A romantic book, movie, self gratification? Sorry not trying to step over any politeness or ethical boundaries. Remember dumb guy here.
Ralph88 Me 40s W 30s, D5 D3 , M7 T9 2013 B drop 1, EA found 2016 B drop 2, EA/PA? 2/16 Physical Seperation 2/16 I filed for D 4/16 PA Confirmed