I am fantasizing about sex and companionship and future relationships and dating and I am procrastinating on attorney consults and potential mediators. now I have a consult with a mediator my husband selected tomorrow. It is just a consult. I do not need to use this mediator but still. I just looked up some questions to ask and I realize that it could be a process just finding a mediator. I can't afford to be a passive participant in this process.
What the hell is wrong with me? I just don't want to deal with reality.
I am not sleeping. And I cannot remember basic facts. I am running through them in my mind and cannot recall. And I mean basic basic facts, that I should have remembered for my job. If i had to take an exam i would fail! I can get by because the clinical, hands on skills are there, but the inability to recall words is scary for me. I am also having trouble absorbing information. I reread and reread and it's just not computing. I have upcoming inservice on an easy topic and im struggling to stay focused. This is horrible.
