So the whole Wednesday MC session has come and gone.
Last week I had brought up and said that we either need to be in the same bedroom, put on your wedding wing and work on this together. She said she wanted to wait to talk to MC to get advice.
Then Friday I see text from W to friend saying how miserable she is and doesn't want to be married. How she is just afraid to say that to me and that she feels bad for not giving me another change. Keep in mind she didn't say this to me but to a friend of hers.
At that point I stop all R talk and go back to basics. I continue to stay in guest room because me demanding would seem like controlling again which would be more of the same.
Since then we have gotten along unreal and she talks about future stuff, invited me to her work banquet, etc
I talk with DB coach on Tuesday night who tells me to just treat her like a good friend. And that if she brings up working on it together in MC then say that sounds encouraging but i still want to take it slow
Fast forward to today and it comes up at the end. She tells MC she is just waiting for a "feeling or a sign."
In my mind a feel like this is more cake eating.
But this is exactly what my DB coach told me to do so I'm just sticking with that for now.
It just seems like we are in this pattern on more of the same and she gets what she wants. Me as a friend to help her do stuff
I don't want a just a friend. I want a wife


M 37 W 30
S 7
Together 10 years
Married 9 years
BD: 12/12/12(W filed same day)
I moved to apartment 1/11/13
W and S moved to MIL 1/11/13
Peicing: 6/3/13
Reconciled: 7/2013
BD2: 4/20/16
still working on it