5 weeks in since she said she doesnt love me.(2)

[Natus]

Lying in bed together is definitely one of the most challenging parts for me too. I want so badly to cuddle, to initiate, to ask for things or try to seduce her.

Trying to go to bed later has helped, or having a non-relationship book to read to give myself something to do. When I do take things into my own hands, I try to make sure to do it when I know I won't see her for a while, because otherwise it just makes me feel resentful

Went to bed late last night and made sure i was on my side of the bed but somehow wake up in the middle of the night with my arms around her. Im not pleased with my subconscious.

Natus,

It's been so long for me that I'm a virgin again.

I really dont know how im going to cope. In the past i have taken care of myself and still had sex with my W afterwards. Maybe i have a high sexual drive.

do any of you guys do silly things like pump out a few push ups before getting out of the shower or whatever to look good in front of WAS?

Yea, I'm guilty of doing this sometimes lol.

I suppose technically it's probably a form of "pursuing" behavior if we're doing it purely hoping to get noticed... like deep down I'm thinking maybe if my guns were a bit more swole she'll dump the OM?

If only...

I laugh about it now, still do it but more of a fun challenge like see how many squats, burpees and push ups i can complete before my W finishes her shower. Usually end up standing there glistening in sweat with a goofy grin on my face when she comes out the shower and its my turn to jumo in. Keeping fit is a major part of my life anyway so its not entirely out of the blue.